Eleven Fifty-Two

I love you
I hate you
I'm mad at you
I need you
Emotional chasms flutter like fireflies
Uncertainty is almost certain
Confusion is in play
What to do
What to think
All signs foretell the outcome-pain
But love is blind
Back against the wall
How can I be both?
Immature and mature at the same time?
Haunted by commitments, teased by passion
Confusion takes over, leading to depression
But Alas,
Behind every cloud lies a silver lining
What goes around, comes around
What goes up must come down
My grief now, amounts to your guilt later
Ah, bitter sweet victory
I dry my eyes
And I see it-a rainbow amidst the storm
To be or not to be
Tell or leave secrets untold
Do I stay?
Do I go?
At 11:52, who the hell knows?

Black to White

Our culture
Filled with slavery
Darker than that-
Can you imagine picking cotton?
Experience changes pyridine
Abuse causes moral systems to shift
By societal standards-
A family man
Who do u think you are?
Everything is everything
Something,
Anything,
My life
Not yours

If Only...

I listened
But I did not hear
I didn't want to hear
What they had to tell me
They are wrong I thought
They don't understand
They are from a different era
They can't understand so I went
Did as I pleased
The next thing I know
I had fallen captive
Of the very thing they warned
Now I must suffer
Face the consequences
Accept my penance
If only I had listened
If only I had heard

Rebirth

Butterflies in my stomach
A flicker between my knees
The very thought of your touch
Leaves me breathless momentarily
Your body next to mine
I'm now hungry for your kiss
I'm hungry for you
Heart racing
Adrenaline pumping
Tantalizing tastes on my tongue
I thirst for more
The rhythmic beat of two hearts
Can now be heard beating as one
As two hearts have collided
And a new, much deeper love is born

Massacre of the Heart

Daddy’s girl
Church girl
Smart girl
Happy girl
Blue skies
Clear sailing
Think again
Suicidal Intentions
A massacre of the heart
Bloody Murder
A soul has vanished
Into the nothingness of oblivion
A part of ME died
The day you broke HER heart

Then...Now

If you could have seen the way I felt…then
Plastered on my face
You would have gazed into eyes of pain
That floated in seas of tears

If you could have read about the way I felt…then
Written on my heart
You would have peered on pages stained by heartache
And read a soliloquy that had no end

If you could have heard the way I felt…then
Played by the beat of my heart
You would have heard a melody with one note
In a key so low it has never been heard

No matter the circumstances…then
Change is imminent and one thing rings true…now
I’m not less of a woman because you left
But you would have been so much more of a man had you stayed

Like Totally

I have this guitar right
And I like play it right
And I like, like it right
And it's like awesome right

I have this phone right
And I like talk and text on it right
Like 24/7 right
And it's like my life right

I have this FB profile right
And i'm like on it right
Like all the time right
And it's like all I do right

I have this bible right
And I like read it...right?
And I like, like it...right?
And it's like......
It's like...
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