Wait and See

NO! I am not okay
I cannot get you out of my mind
I think of you constantly
And I wonder if you are thinking of me too
Even though deep inside, I know that you are not
Because you are probably thinking of...
Well you know...

Ha! It's funny how you thought I didn't know
Yes, I knew
How could I not
I just thought- if I ignore it, then it can't be real
I needed validation from no one
It was there all along
Didn't want to believe it
Didn't want to accept it
But I knew
Probably even before you would admit it to yourself

Don't try to save me anymore
Don't shield me from anything
Live your life in the open
Free from secrets
Accept what you have...
Who you have
And move on

I knew we were not meant to be
And if we are, not then
But I can't shake this feeling
These emotions that still lurk in the shadows of my mind for you
I think about you way too much...
You said "people change"
Well yes that's true
But have you ever stopped to think
That it may not really be-change
But that they just learned finally learned to "accept"
And give into what was there all along?

Your love for her you stifled
Then came me...
Did you even give us a chance?
I gave you my trust...
My heart...
I gave you —ME
All that I had left
But you were still never ALL mine

My head tells me it was for the best
But my heart is stubborn
It won't listen
And now I constantly wonder
Does he hurt?
Did he ever?
Hmmm....hard to believe that he did
But, I hope for his sake
What goes around,
Does not come around
For the hurt that I felt
Hurt I still feel...
I wouldn't wish on my greatest foe

I wish you luck with HER
Hope she's everything I WAS, AM not
As for me...
They say time heals all
Well I guess we'll just have to wait and see